Inner Peace

"Patience is a virtue." Patience is something I haven't exactly excelled at in my past. I've always been more of an instant gratification sort of gal. Somehow, I've always known though, patience would be my biggest test in life. 

When I was in my teenage years and my young 20's, I had my life planned out. I was going to graduate college, get married, buy a house, have 3 kids, a dog, a cat, and a mini van- all before I turned 30. (Because that's what you're supposed to do, right?) So, when I reached the evening before my last birthday, I cried. I had a full blown meltdown because I was divorced with no kids, no house, no minivan, no dog, and my cats weren't even in my possession at the time. I was convinced I was a total and utter failure. I wrote myself a letter that night. I wanted to be able to look back on it one day to remind myself how ridiculous I was being the night before my 29th birthday. 

Just a month and a half later- I look back at this letter and think to myself "Geeze, take a chill pill!"  I've found my inner peace. Everything that I thought was turning my life into a disaster was actually pointing me in the right direction. I got off track a few times here and there the last 10 years, but I wouldn't be the person I am today otherwise. Yeah, I don't have the husband (or the boyfriend even), I don't have the kids, the minivan, the big glorious house with an outdoor kitchen (hey, dream big!), or the dog...but I have everything I could ever want right now. I've realized that right now, I'm not supposed to have those kids or that husband. I wasn't ready. I needed to go off the deep end, learn to swim, and be able to climb back out on my own. I needed that time to be alone and figure out who I was, what I wanted, what I didn't want, etc. I also needed to learn to stop relying on other people and other things to complete me. It's been a hard lesson, but a very much needed lesson. 

I don't need anyone to complete me. Am I ready to fall in love again? Absolutely. I finally fell in love with myself and know I am 110% capable of being able to love someone else. BUT, am I going looking for it? No way. I've learned patience truly IS a virtue. He's out there (whoever he is) and that house and those kids and that dog and the minivan can wait. I'm letting life happen as it comes now and taking each day for what it is. 

Changes From Within

My life is constantly evolving...as it should. If everything stayed exactly the same, that would mean there's been no growth. The last 7 months have been an intense growing period for me and I am incredibly thankful for that. I am in no way the same woman I was in October. When my relationship ended, I went through the usual stages of a breakup...denial, bargaining, anger, etc. Then one day, I decided I was going to not only let go of him...but of the person I had been.

I made a list of all the things I wanted to do before I ever got into another relationship again. Some of the things were minor and stupid like get my oil changed. (Ok....trust me, that was a big deal!) And other things were major, like reconciling with everyone I was on bad terms with. As each accomplishment got marked off the list, I found myself adding more items. I loved the improved Ashton and wanted to see how far I could go!

The list has one final thing and it's in the works. I've now made myself a list of things to do, just because I want to continue to grow but I'm proud of how far I've come and of the woman I've found in me. I have the people back in my life that I had missed, I've apologized for the things I've done that have hurt others, I've become a more positive person, I've forgiven myself for poor decisions I've made, I've made my life goals, and I've finally (FINALLY!!) learned to love and accept myself.

My challenge for you is no matter what season of life you're in, take some time to think about what could you improve on or what goals you want to accomplish. Make yourself a list (read it often to remind yourself of what you're going for) and just do it! Your future self will thank you! 

XO-

A

I chopped my hair off!

I finally started my own Photography business!

Set a new PR for myself

My first fish in 37 weeks...talk about a dry spell!

Guide to Growing Up

Here's the thing people don't tell you when you're trying to grow up...

             Nobody has a clue what they're doing.

We're all faking it til we make it. There's no cut and dry way to do this. That's why people make so many mistakes. But...the mistakes are part of what helps you grow up. How you handle the aftermath, how you choose to live your life afterwards, and how you hold yourself accountable. 

Be humble. It's not always the other person's fault. (And you are no better than anyone else).

Be genuine. No sense in trying if you don't mean it.

Be wise. Don't make the same mistake twice.

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Aside from making mistakes, there's a lot more you learn as you get older.

 For instance...you can't force someone to love you. Sometimes it doesn't matter how hard you try, how great of a person you are, or what sacrifices you make. If they're not meant for you or not ready for you, it's not your fault. You have to learn when to keep fighting and when to let go. That's a lesson that'll never get easier or clearer. 

You learn life doesn't go according to plan. There's so many twists and turns you don't know to expect. You have to learn to be ok with it. Go with the flow and have faith that everything will turn out ok.

You learn to become you're own best friend. You're the only person that knows all of your deepest darkest secrets, your first and last thought of the day, your crazy dreams you can't tell anyone else about, and what stupid goal you have in life that no one else would ever understand. You become your biggest cheerleader too. No one knows the struggles you face and you can't rely on someone else to push you like YOU can push you.

You learn to stop trying to keep up with what everyone else has. Just because it's right for them, doesn't mean it's right for you. Be happy with little everyday things. The sun finally came out after the rain? Then smile. You thought you were out of milk and you still have enough for what you needed? Then be thankful. Someone paid you a genuine compliment? Then be happy and confident.

Finally, you learn just because you're down..doesn't mean you'll stay down (and vice versa). You're going to have good times and bad times. If everyday were good, you wouldn't know it. Life comes to us in seasons and in every season, there is a lesson to be learned. 

Be humble, Be genuine, Be wise-

A

St. Tropez Review

I fully intended to write a post at least every 2 weeks. Obviously that didn't work out as planned! My entire life just went through a total change and I am ECSTATIC! Though my life isn't settling down anytime soon, I do have a ton of reviews I need to get posted so instead of trying to cram everything into one, they're just going to have to come one product at a time. 

If you've ever read my blog or have been around me for any length of time, you know I'm big on experimenting with sunless tanning lotion. I've been blessed with porcelain skin that I've had to learn to love- HOWEVER....in the summer time I enjoy not reflecting the sunlight. My last review on tanner, I bragged about Sephora which is still one of my favorites. It's definitely easy to apply and not too terribly expensive. 

I finally got to try St. Tropez bronzing mousse.

I love the fact it has a deep tint in the actual mousse. I can see where I've applied it, where I need to apply more, where I could possibly streak, AND it gives me instant gratification. The color develops into a gorgeous natural looking golden tan as opposed to the typical orange tone. The scent is actually REALLY appealing. I'd use it as a fragrance for everyday! The only downside I'm seeing so far, it doesn't hang on very long and it costs $32 for a 4 oz bottle. Mine was a sample I got in a New Beauty Test Tube. (Thanks Kristen!!!)

As a reminder, here's my tips on faking your tan:

1) Shave prior to applying.

2) Exfoliate especially your legs and rough spots (see tip 3 for spots).

3) Apply a thin layer of lotion to elbows, hands, knees, ankles, toes. Let dry.

4) I recommend using a Buffing Mitt, however, it can be done without. 

5) Start from bottom to top (because otherwise bending at the waist will cause lines to form on your stomach).

6) Apply in a circular motion and DON'T go heavy with it. Try to be as light as you can.

7) Remember to go (extra lightly) in between fingers and toes, around ankles, knees, elbows, and wrists. Do not avoid the tops of your hands otherwise, you look like you have a tan sweater on....with white gloves.

8) Don't forget behind your neck and behind your ears (because you'll remember once you're wearing a ponytail).

9) Let it dry before putting on your spandex (actually here's a tip...don't wear spandex).

10) Smile...it's your best accessory ;)

So...will I actually BUY this? Maybe. If I have the extra money and time to keep applying it...I probably will. Honestly though, the Sephora brand lasts longer and I got it cheaper. If you have any questions/comments/concerns/tips- feel free to post below. 

XO-

A

Happy Birthday!

'Twas the night before my birthday and all through the house, not a creature was stirring, not even a ...wait, what was that?!?

I got an email 2 weeks ago from Ulta wishing me a Happy Birthday and I was pretty excited to see that they were giving me a FULL sized CK One mascara (no purchase necessary- valued at $18). My girlfriend Kristen and I made a trip to Charlottesville so I could get my mascara and of course I ended up spending a ton of money! The mascara though is AMAZING. The wand turns so the comb expands and contracts! That honestly could amuse me for about an hour. No clumping, full lashes, no stickyness...I give it a 10/10.

This got me to thinking...

How many of you know where to sign up to get the free stuff for you birthday?!? I thought I might try to lend a hand and give you the scoop!

Birthday present: CK One full size mascara

How to get it: Create an online account or go in store to sign up to become an ULTA member. It's free and you can gain points on all purchases you can redeem for more fun stuff throughout the year. 

Website: http://www.ulta.com/ulta/rewards/home.jsp

Birthday present: Free mini Make Up For Ever's best selling Rouge Artist natural lipstick and Smoke Extravagant mascara.

How to get it: Sign up in stores or online. Here's the catch... You have to BUY something to retrieve your gift. The upside to that though is if you buy something, you also get your gift and then you pick which other samples you would like to receive. Last year, I got the tanning lotion I reviewed, plus the birthday gift, plus FIVE samples...all for $5.00.

Website: https://www.sephora.com/profile/beautyInsider/?tab=bi

Birthday present: A complimentary Personal Blends, Pure-Fume Spirit or body care product valued at $25

How to get it: Sign up online or in stores! You receive a voucher within 28 days of your birthday that you can bring into the store to redeem. No purchases are necessary and if you get 5 friends to sign up for the birthday program you can get a coupon for a travel sized body lotion. P.S, sign up through my facebook link so I can get one and review it for you guys!

Website: http://invati.aveda.com/signup

Birthday present: Based on availability and changes frequently. I just signed up so I am not sure what the current offer is. Who cares? Smashbox...hello!?!?

How to get it: Sign up online. You also receive offers each Tuesday and Thursday on other special items!

Website: https://www.smashbox.com/account/loyalty/join.tmpl

Birthday present: The website doesn't specify WHAT it is, but it's a $10 value.

How to get it: You have to become a member and pay their $10 fee. (Boo) You do get special rewards and invitations though. (Yay)

Website: http://www.thebodyshop-usa.com/services/love-your-body-club.aspx

In my opinion- your best bet is Ulta. They are the only company that is giving away a FULL size product for free. (Certainly you can sign up at ALL places...like I did!)

So, it's officially my birthday now (took me awhile to finish this!) What other free things can I look for today (food, drinks, etc?) 

Cheers!

A

Snow day!

Finally we have a little bit of snow in the area!! I know a bunch of children (and adults) are happy to get time off! I love to look at the snow falling and especially the next morning when it's a clean blanket across everything. It's the only thing that makes Winter worthwhile!

I hope you all had a fabulous Christmas and New Years! I've been so behind on blogging, but that will have to change!! I received a TON of E.L.F makeup for Christmas from my Mom and Stepfather. I'll go through all of that on a separate post.

Since we have SNOW on the ground, I thought I might bring up the dreaded dry skin issues we suffer this time of year. We're lacking any humidity in the air (at least in the Virginia area!), we have our heat on full blast, we're going from inside heat to outside bitter cold and back inside to heat all day, we have our showers on hot water drying us out, etc. If you're like me, you can't wait for Springtime to roll around just so your skin feels normal again! Here's a couple of my go-to products to beat the Winter dryness!

Let's start with the hair! If you are blow drying, air drying, flat ironing, whatever- it needs some love. 

A friend of mine (and fellow blogger!) introduced me to this back in 2007. I adore the scent of this stuff. It definitely makes you feel "So Sexy"! It's not too greasy as long as you know how to apply it. (Stay away from your roots!) I squirt a tiny bit of serum into my palm, rub my hands together, and then rub the ends of my hair between my palms. It's enough to keep your hair smelling fresh and less frizzed out! I've had the same bottle for years and only paid about $14.00 for it. It's cheaper than a lot of other products I've reviewed!!

Next on the list is the Avon Dew Kiss chapstick.

 This is a product I (and many other ladies) have used since I was a child! I can remember my Grandmother putting this in my stocking for Christmas. The scent is nostalgic now! I like that it's a neutral scent though, and nothing overpowering or "seasonal". I really don't care to use Gingerbread chapstick in July! It's light, very moisturizing, and cheap! (Um...hello! Under a dollar!)

Smooth skin in the winter time doesn't come from only putting lotion on. You have to erase the problems!! 

I started using this after Alyssa Hood recommended it on her YouTube channel (check her stuff out!) I use this every night to exfoliate, especially in the wintertime! This particular formula is made for acne clearing. Honestly, I don't see where that does anything. It smells like grapefruit though and does an excellent job of taking off makeup and buffing the skin. This is only about $4-5. 

The body lotion!!!

If you haven't already learned about me...I'm a total girly girl with my scents and fragrances. I make an exception in the winter for this lotion. Bye bye Bath and Body Works until about...April-ish. I love this stuff because a- it's cheap ($3!!!) and b- it has cocoa butter AND shea in it. Slather this stuff on IMMEDIATELY after getting out of the shower to seal in that moisture. The smell isn't bad per se, it's just not fruity patooty like I prefer. This also does a number on stretch marks f.y.i.

Last, but not least....my most favorite of them all....

I don't care if you are a boy, girl, teenager, adult, acne, no acne, white, black, blue, green-- this stuff works! I started using this over 10 years ago and there is a reason I continue to use it today. It has a slight menthol feel and smell as soon as you put it on (not a burning sensation though). It's enough to feel fresh and cool. It's light, soaks in quickly, and honestly does help out acne issues. This is also cheap at about $5. 

So, what do you think??!! For an estimated cost of $28.00 for the entire winter (plus some!), you can be thoroughly moisturized. Take those savings you would have spent on more expensive products and go get some Hot Chocolate and cute Infinity Scarves!! Do you have any go to products you'd like to share with us?? Feel free to comment on the post, share on Facebook, Google +, or Twitter. Stay warm my friends!

XO-

A

Thanksgiving Week!

Yes, I'm blogging again! No, it's not about a beauty product. I'm taking a step away from that for the time being. I've been going through a lot of changes the past couple of months. I feel though these changes have been very difficult on my heart, it was necessary for me to grow. I look back a year ago and I cannot believe the person I was. I have been dealt a difficult hand in life just as many others have. I am no different in having struggles. No different, no better, and no worse. For myself though, I have worked extremely hard to overcome the challenges I face on a daily basis. I work hard so that nobody has to see the struggle. I only want you to see the smile, joy, and laughter. I've gotten really good at this and I am proud of that. I will certainly reach out when I am overwhelmed in whatever way, but I have gotten myself to where I can rely on myself. After all, that's who will be there in the end. Not that this is a bad thing! I think it's a beautiful skill to be able to finally love and rely on yourself. I know there are so many people out there who have my back and I think that is what has given me to strength and encouragement to do this for myself. I know that I have a purpose that I have yet to complete otherwise I wouldn't still be standing here today. I have a renewed hope for a better life. As I heard this morning, "Hope lies in the future, not the present." How true! I am confident in what I have to offer the people in my life and those I've not yet met. I know that life without risk, forgiveness, and love is no life at all. 

So, why blog about this now? It's Thanksgiving week and I have been abundantly blessed this past year.I wanted to share this with you. I may not have all the material possessions I would like to have, but I am rich in other areas.

1) I have my health.

2) I have a wonderful family and incredible friends who have shown unconditional love for me.

3) I am warm every night when I go to sleep in a comfortable bed.

4) I have a sweet cat who adores me.

5) I have a wonderful job that I have excelled in.

6) I have an education and the chance to go back to school if I so desire.

7) I never have to go hungry.

8) I have indoor plumbing and a shower. 

9) I have a car I love and is reliable. (That is material, BUT is something I appreciate greatly)

10) I am very talented in many ways and can use these talents to help people.

I don't take anything for granted and I think that's one of the reasons I had to go through what I did. I am thankful to be able to sit here on my bed on this beautiful Sunday morning, listening to Vitamin String Quartet, drinking my hazelnut coffee, and watching the cars go by outside. If you think I'm being cheesy, then you don't know my story :) I feel so at peace with myself now. I don't think I've ever felt this way before. Funny how some things work out (funny how some don't). I wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving week. May you be blessed in all ways.

XO-

A